Savings

It's barely November and some of the things outside are frozen. Some of my things inside are frozen, but for a very different reason. 

Thanks to daylight savings time, I had an extra hour today to get some thinking done. I spent it watching House and cleaning my room. Thought wasn't a part of the equation, but I've found that my mind works so much better when my rug is clean. 

Or when I've had some form of caffeine and a cigarette.

But really, what did I save? Certainly not my sanity, that's been gone for a few weeks now. 

I didn't save any money. In fact, I spent way too much on some stuffed French toast and a (very good) cappuccino.

I did nothing to save my grades; I couldn't concentrate enough to do any homework.

My lungs? Those will have to wait until lacrosse starts again.

In essence, my extra hour was spent wasting it. And really, it felt good. Relaxation has never been my forte, and I realize that maybe saving myself is what today was all about.

But really, that isn't something I'm capable of doing.

As for now, I should really be working on an international politics paper. Talk about saving...

"...we prayed it never be fixed or be found"